Hatred

Hello, people out there.

I hate my parents! If they dont even love me, y did they give birth to me? Haiz.

So, this is what happened:
I got back from my tuition @ about 9 pm. My 13 year old sis is using the computer. I asked whether I can use it, she said no. OK then, fine. After dinner, I then sat down in front of the computer. Then mom came in,"No computer!" She said. I told her I just sat down & then she said go do hw 1st then I can use it @ 10.3opm. OK then, FINE! & so I locked myself in my room & studied till 10.30. & then when I came out, she was still using it. So, I brushed my teeth 1st. It is oredy about 11 smt. When I thought I can use it, my 9 year old sis is using it. So, I told her it is my time now. But she doesnt care. So I grew impatient & took the laptop away from her. She then cried out loud like a maniac & scratched me.

Mom came in & asked what happened. But appearently she doesnt want answer 4 that cause she started scolding me b4 I can even think of the answer. Gah! I am actually oredy known her very well so its so ordinary that her scold me 1st no matter what happened, whose fault is that, she doesnt care. As long as she scolds me.

I cried. Again. I know I shouldnt have cried cause then mom will think that it is my fault & u will think I m a crybaby. But this is 1 of my biggest weak spot--Cant talk when I m extremly angry, or else, I will cry. So, I cried & nothing that I said that mom will listen.
Bold is my mom as you can imagine that her voice is filled w/ anger cause I made her precious little daughter cry.
Italic is me cause I m crying & my sound is doing slopy like that.
She went,"What's happening?"
"She ( my 9 year old sis ) scratched my hands & it is bleeding."
"Then what did you do 2 her that her scratched you?"
"I just took the computer away & she scratched me"
" Y did you took the computer away from her?"
" It is my time now."
"Cant u talk to her nicely?"
"I did. She doesnt want to listen."
"So you must grab it from her?!"
"I did not even touched her!!!"
"So y did she scratched you?"
"HOW SHOULD I KNOW?!!!"
"Switch the computer off! Now!"
And with that she concluded our conversation.
Gah! Then I cant use it anymore. Itis like this everytime. Hello?! I m the eldest here! Both of my sisters show no respect. Everytime I have to just let them be, or else, smt like this will happen. But then, if I let them everytime, I cant use it!! Can smb pls teach me a way to solve this? Y do they have 2 be fiercer than me?
Haiz. Tata.